What would you say to your ex without judgement?

It's been years and you still haven't found someone.

Someone stable.

Someone you love.

Sometimes I feel better, I know in the deepest part of my heart it wasn't me. It was you.

Sometimes I feel sad, sad for you and sad for what you could have had, what it could have been.

Sometimes I feel sick to my stomach did I jeopardise that for you? Did I ruin it? Is it this heartache that you caused that is stopping you from finding someone else.

Sometimes I long for it, that moment where you come back, not even crawling not even running, banging the door down trying to get in. No I would just accept that you would stroll back in like nothing ever happened and like you never even left.

I know that that will never happen.

I don't even want that to happen, I don't want to deal with that, I don't want that drama, I don't want you.

I am happy. I have moved on. It took me time, but I have moved on.

I just want that moment, I hate to be petty but I want that moment of I told you so.

I want it to come from me.

Someone who you were once loved by.