Week 20

Bleh.

To sum up this week honestly it just falls into the category bleh.

I was not even going to sit down and write about the week that just was because I don't think it even deserved to be written about. I was so disappointed in myself and the way I approached the week. I was disappointed in the way that the week ended but mainly I was just annoyed at myself that I was not strong enough to pull myself out what needed to be done to get this week back on track.

I am taking this moment know to reflect not on the week but more on myself and how this is exactly what I didn't want to happen.

I know myself all to well and I know that when I am in a bad week I stay in a bad week and I know that I need to start having better weeks.

I am literally in the middle of writing a blog post 'no 2 bad days in a row' and as I am trying to write that I am sitting in one of the worst weeks of my year so far.

There is only 2 positives that have come from this week.

This is the first one of the year so far. (Hopefully there will be no more or at the very least only one more.)

I am sitting down to acknowledge this week right now and not letting it define me for the rest of the month.

I am getting myself back on track.

I need to get myself back on track.

I do not like being or like sitting in this negative persona of a unhappy slob of a person, it's not me and it is not rewarding.

On a whole side note to this kind of post and writing and I am really only using this to put everything into perspective. Last week was not a self care, help or rest week. It was a lazy week. I didn't catch up on anything or take time to reflect or even meditate. It was not one of those weeks it was a week where I sat there and did absolutely nothing.

This week coming I will work on getting back on the horse, I will try to go to the gym as much as possible and if I do those things then I will reward myself at the end of the week for it and I will treat it like a reward.

Heading into this next week I think I realised a few things:

I have started to strive of routine.

That means the getting out of bed at 6am, the going to the gym after work, the reading at night, the writing in the morning all of those things. They need to fall back into their routine.

So that is what I will focus on this week.

Routine.

So that was the week that was, here is to the week that is coming.